Mish Mash

its deathly quiet at home now. all the lights are off and the computer screen casts an empty glow in the room.
i have no idea why i cant seem to get to sleep. maybe cos of all the flood of events that happened recently. like all hell broke loose.

dear friends
dear me

some depressing
some so happy
some so embarrassing
some i have no idea what to make out of
some i have yet to know the full story

christmas is coming
new year is coming

i know what i want for christmas this year. which is good. i dont usually do. but this year. i've my sights on several things. ahhh. hopefully but some weird twist of luck i'll have my wish come true hehehehehe.

the new year is always the time where i feel most lost. i look back on the going year and maybe be filled with regret and sometimes joy in the things that have happened. but most importantly, i'd rather spend it with ppl close to my heart..not some insane party somewhere..

i feel old already..

no idea what's this post about. everything is scattered. i know. no train of thought. so all over the place. but maybe in this messy messy mess some coherency is present. i need to get my blogging mind back. blogging abt such un-interesting thoughts and events are so mundane. abt how i feel day in day out. boring. life i need a life.

ok let's take this nice n slow, walk with me if u will.
i warn u it takes great patience..

nice and slow
nice and slow into the new year